Car Ride.

So today, I decided to stay after school for a bit, hang out for a bit.

A friend of mine was really bummed out because of the Calculus AB final. He has a D in the class, and calculated his grade, and it'll probably remain a D unless the test is miraculously curved. I felt really bad for him, so I decided to treat him to lunch. Albertacos is a great source of pity food.

A couple hours later, his younger sister's friends decided that they wanted to get Yogurtland, which is on the way to my house. The only caveat? Seven people in one compact car that fits five people.

We stuffed Nick and Lynna into the car after shoving everyone else in. I was in the back, and Nick was basically sitting down on my lap and lying down on me. It was great; I got to hug him for the entire car ride =] I've never been in someone's personal space for so long, nor has anyone ever minded me being that close to them before. It was really fun! I enjoyed holding him close to me and feeling his heartbeat and warmth.. and of course, the insanity that ensued while we were in the car XD Tickling and laughing and jokes.. Hehe. We must do this again!

I have a newfound love for the sophomores. =]

Hope

Where am I?

Here is black and white.

All I want is to see you again,

I can't stop crying.

In my heart among hearts,

Brutal memories and soundless voices struggle.

I believed our happiness would last forever

After I lost you, the Light,

Depressing nights have fallen on me.

I still recall your smile,

When your tenderness filled my heart.

I treasure it in my mind,

Your precious smile that lasts forever.

My happiness's gone, but I'm alive

While babies are born, some people die.

I can never see you again,

the Light I found,

You're gone..

I still recall your smile,

When your tenderness fulfilled my heart.

I treasure it in my mind,

Your precious smile that lasts forever.

Hope

I can see it.

A wisp of a dream became reality.

I've been accepted into a family that is not my own. Not under false pretenses, but under the idea that they care about me and want me to see better days than I have. Perhaps it's a bit of a stretch to truly consider them my family, but undoubtedly I would be seeing worse days if it weren't for them.

I feel a bit sad that I can't see the Okada family everyday, or even that often. However, their compassion for me has lessened the ceaseless grief that I experienced in my solitude.

It's slow progress, but progress nonetheless. Maybe these micro-miracles can be enough to satiate me. Who knows? Only time will tell, at this point.

Things are looking up now, but I'm still a bit sad. You can't have everything, though, can you?